Inside me

I often wonder why God chose me to go to Africa. Why am I called to do this? It might be fear or lack of courage but I often think about how it would be a lot easier to stay in the States. I was raised in America, where independence is mantra but God's called me so far to a life of interdependence. My calling requires me to depend on other people and the church for my food, my clothes, my ability to even do ministry. If I'm honest I hate it but I think some of that might be why God called me to it. It comes down to trust and will I let go of what I can do so that God can do what he does best, the impossible.

I've been blessed with so much, how can I procrastinate or pity my call to Africa. If I really sit back and think about it...I should be running full steam ahead to give all I can to the Jesus who gave me everything. Pray for me, that I might embrace my call, that I might let go of what I think is success.